My mind races at a million miles for hours
I start thinking I have some sort of super powers
Go to the roof to get high, no I don’t smoke, see that’s the joke
Time to get high, jump off the roof and I’ll start to fly.
I can be superman and that’s the plan to watch me dent the cement and avoid having to cover the rent
As I start this rhyme wondering all the time how I can get away with my crime
The punishment is death and I’m on the row, for what I do not know
Guilty at birth for whatever that is worth, time for a lethal injection and take this in a whole new direction
I wake up day after day just wanting the pain to go away
I once downed enough ambien to kill a horse, just hoping it would alter my course
Nevertheless, I failed at the success, wake up the next day, because dreams won’t take the pain away
Why can’t I just die, it never seems to work, god must be laughing at me, that fucking jerk
Sometimes I just want to end the pain, put a gun to my temple and just remove my brain
Who cares about the fucked up mess it’s a guaranteed success just one bullet away to see my last day
What does happiness have to do with life, just give me a big enough knife to slice my wrist for a little while and watch it bring on the smile
It’s the simple things that give the most pleasure so cut a little deeper just for good measure
You feel sorry for me, well that’s a laugh you don’t even know the first thing about me or last half.
You want to feel bad and that’s great if you want to help just make sure the ambulance is a little late
What the fuck, this is a bad hand so it’s time to cash it in because I can’t win
Why play a game when you’re going to lose might as well just take a little snooze
What’s another pill or a cut anything to get over the hill and out of this rut.
I was told it’s time to close a chapter but we’re at the end of the book, didn’t you see all the abuse I took?
Stop thinking I’m a good guy how many times do I need to make someone cry.
It had to end sometime so when you read what I write. Just remember that I get to select how you view me and pick the nicest light.
So when I paint the walls with my splatter don’t pretend like you care, like I matter. You don’t know me from the hole in your ass but we’re both full of shit, ugly and crass.
Let’s play a game and see how bad we can make my life suck you selfish little fuck like I didn’t do you a favor but you love the taste of pain is your favorite flavor
You only knew the me I let you see the smoke and mirrors for my show and that was the me you got to know
Oh the show must go on and the stage is set, time to rip out my brain and make my body forget
Time to close the curtain and finish the book, time to watch the magic from the pills that I took
Gather the hippos and say goodbye, turn them around so they won’t have to cry.
Where’s the knife and grab my gun, time to take my life and have some fun
You want to play a game and so do I, it’s called how many times do I have to die.